Wednesday, January 15, 2003
Okay...just had to stop in here and say one quick thing...
I was just checking my email and saw that another girl I went to highschool with, Shauna, wrote me an email through Classmates.com and made contact with me. WHAT?
What is going on with me these days? This is so strange and so good for me. I completely shut out my past and now I am being forced into facing it and accepting it. It's a lesson I never expected to learn and a challenge I never thought I was strong enough to face. But here it is and I feel ready for it.
You are gay Joe. It's cool and you have accepted it. You are comfortable with it. Everyone else will be too. And ultimately it doesn't matter.
D, I know will be cool about all of this. She was always a very intriguing and special person. I respected her and looked up to her and in some ways, was very intimidated by her. She was so smart and cool and I was so heavy and spikey haired. (well...I'm still heavy and spikey haired)(Sike)(sorta sike) I wanted to be like her. Cept a boy and yeah that's it. I still wanted to like boys like her, so no need to change that. I know she'll be nothing short of amazing.
But Shauna?
I didn't know Shauna very well. She was better friends with two people from my group. She was always very nice and really...well...never made an impression on me either way. Actually! She never called me "fag", so I guess I do hold some place for her in my heart. People like that were few and far between.
So what's up?!!? I guess I do talk to her and see what's going on with her. I am curious. And it's also good for me. I am 25. TIme to start healing the past and focusing on the future. Has this been what the last 3 years have been about?
Purely discovery?
Possibly.
Or possibly I'm just crazy and lazy and smoking up my hazy.
If I EVER write anything like that again...I expect anyone reading to send me an email belittling me. No one deserves to read shit like that.
That's it.
Welcome to Joe Cut the Shit.
I feel all brand new and shit.
shit shit and shit
I was just checking my email and saw that another girl I went to highschool with, Shauna, wrote me an email through Classmates.com and made contact with me. WHAT?
What is going on with me these days? This is so strange and so good for me. I completely shut out my past and now I am being forced into facing it and accepting it. It's a lesson I never expected to learn and a challenge I never thought I was strong enough to face. But here it is and I feel ready for it.
You are gay Joe. It's cool and you have accepted it. You are comfortable with it. Everyone else will be too. And ultimately it doesn't matter.
D, I know will be cool about all of this. She was always a very intriguing and special person. I respected her and looked up to her and in some ways, was very intimidated by her. She was so smart and cool and I was so heavy and spikey haired. (well...I'm still heavy and spikey haired)(Sike)(sorta sike) I wanted to be like her. Cept a boy and yeah that's it. I still wanted to like boys like her, so no need to change that. I know she'll be nothing short of amazing.
But Shauna?
I didn't know Shauna very well. She was better friends with two people from my group. She was always very nice and really...well...never made an impression on me either way. Actually! She never called me "fag", so I guess I do hold some place for her in my heart. People like that were few and far between.
So what's up?!!? I guess I do talk to her and see what's going on with her. I am curious. And it's also good for me. I am 25. TIme to start healing the past and focusing on the future. Has this been what the last 3 years have been about?
Purely discovery?
Possibly.
Or possibly I'm just crazy and lazy and smoking up my hazy.
If I EVER write anything like that again...I expect anyone reading to send me an email belittling me. No one deserves to read shit like that.
That's it.
Welcome to Joe Cut the Shit.
I feel all brand new and shit.
shit shit and shit
